I feel I am calmer , wiser , but I have many aches and pains , and now go to bed , when it used to only be time to go out ! but all things considered it is just an age , I still feel youthful but one thing that hasn't changed is that I still listen to and enjoy the Cure ! I will be 57 this Feb.
And you run, and you run to catch up with the sun, but it's sinking Racing around to come up behind you again The sun is the same in a relative way, but you're older Shorter of breath and one day closer to death
I wouldn't say I'm scared of ageing. I definitely see benefits as well as the aspects that are often played up most to scare people.
Less energy, for sure. Your body does start to break down, little by little, as being injured the past few weeks has shown me. I think that's the most frustrating and humbling part for me.
Can't drink coffee after 4:00 p.m. and have to watch the fried / fatty foods for the comfort of the GI tract. Can't read or knit well in low light (I can't wait to get reading glasses because they look awesomely sexy on many, IMO, lol).
BUT, I give less of AF now in terms of worrying about others' opinions, which is a positive. I'm more patient in some ways, less in others. I think I have more compassion. I am more forgiving of myself and others' faults. Those are great things and make a huge positive difference.
Everyone who is lucky enough ages, so you may as well try to enjoy the ride and learn to take it all in stride.
I'm not very comfortable about it. So many things seem to be gone forever. I know I'm able to feel young or just not to care at all about my age but it requires to be surrounded by good things, events, feelings and people. When the reality bites, nowadays I feel old and helpless.
Have I changed? Yes, but it's not the age issue I think. They are all events we witness, which happen to us and leave a deep trace.
But I don't see And I don't feel But tightly hold up silently My hands before my fading eyes And in my eyes Your smile
I mistook stars reflected in a pond at night for those in the sky.