Not good. I thought I had caught a cold but it resembles more and more tonsillitis. Pain is really big, I have a problem even with drinking tea and the fever is growing. On Monday I have an appointment with my doc for quite another reason so at least I don't have to worry about how to reach a doc. Instead I wonder how my incredibly "understanding" company react for another sick leave in this month. BTW, I think I didn't tell that I've been working for over four months now two jobs. I've been covering also for my ill workmate since mid-February. After three months my bosses "noticed" that obviously he was absent and decided to hire someone to fill in. It's not that easy though and still there is no one to do at least part of the job.
so sorry to hear :/ hope you could get a rest over the weekend and doc can help tomorrow. sounds like you are having some tough times, all a bit much... sending get well wishes, xx
Thank you dear fiveswinglive . Yes I know that... The problem is that even a week or two without work doesn't help, it's too little. The tiredness comes back as a boomerang.
@notkristie , thanks a lot for your care, I did some disgusting gargle and the pain is lesser today. My company is just a common corporation nowadays and obviously most of employees are worth very little when they stop working overhours or start to complain or to take sick leaves. I think it's not possible to improve such an attitude anymore and it seems it's the end of my work there. I just have to find a new job but unfortunately I simply cannot accept the first one available. So it will take time... Not to mention that looking at me I wouldn't hire myself right now
Thank you dear steve . Hugs needed, it always feels better with them
And last but not least thank you so much godwina . Yes, it's too much but there is some hope deep in me that better days are yet to come.
And hey, The Cure helps. Even if they played the darkest stuff it would help and bring joy. Amazing, isn't it?
But I don't see And I don't feel But tightly hold up silently My hands before my fading eyes And in my eyes Your smile
I mistook stars reflected in a pond at night for those in the sky.
still like death from chemo but took the first major step toward retiring on disability. went out & bought the car i've been leasing. low payment & i'll most likely be dead before its paid for. second step tomorrow: the spine doctor
I'm good. Eating breakfast. Haven't slept at all after mighty Glastonbury gig and our live report but surprisingly I feel well enough. Coming back to work after 6 days long sick leave. It doesn't make me happy. The first thing which awaits me there is a talk about my holiday, they asked me to postpone it. If I say yes, most likely I won't go to see The Cure this year. I absolutely don't want it to happen, besides I really need much free of work time now.
Anyway, those last days, when I had a bit time for myself almost entirely spent on The Cure and the forum was a real rest. They gave me much joy and true relaxation. It's something I could do all the time, to be closer to the best band in the world, to the music and to the bunch of good Cure people. To good vibes…
But I don't see And I don't feel But tightly hold up silently My hands before my fading eyes And in my eyes Your smile
I mistook stars reflected in a pond at night for those in the sky.
down. today is 27th anniversary of my mom's passing. same day as i was set to meet the cure. possibly facing more spine surgery but won't find out about that for a week due to doc vacation. until then, planet pain. getting ready for work. last thursday i found a huge error & single handedly saved the company half a million dollars. hopefully some good will from that will continue but not holding my breath. a cut of that as a bonus would be lovely but highly unlikely!
Empty, I think... As for my work, on Friday they finally let me take my holiday despite they didn't find anyone to cover my ill workmate. I felt something was wrong. Today I was unofficially informed about a change of shape of my department along with a change of a supervisor. I'm sure the next step will be a notice or a new, worse contract depending on the fact if my ill workmate is going to come back to work or not. For the time being they even don't want to make a quarterly review with me. As from Wednesday I have a holiday and to be honest I'd like tomorrow would be my last day of work. It's not about my pride, I just have enough. For a very long time...
But I can't let it happen... The reason I can't leave just like that is the financial one, of course. I'm not able to fully engage in intense looking for a new job with energy and a smile on my face either. And I'm not able to give up much time for a potential new job, trainings, business trips etc. My mother is ill and I am the only care for her. Since last summer I've known there was something really serious going with her, since April I've known it's a cancer. Inoperable but slowly advancing. She's home and she doesn't want it to change. Me neither, I can't do otherwise and it's non-negotiable.
Well, it will be even more tricky now. Anyway, I'll try to rest and to think, also to enjoy The Cure Summer. It helps me a lot, let me maintain the balance. It's a strange summer, full of emotions, cheerful and very sad...
But I don't see And I don't feel But tightly hold up silently My hands before my fading eyes And in my eyes Your smile
I mistook stars reflected in a pond at night for those in the sky.
Sounds like a pretty uncomfortable situation work-wise lioness. As for your mum, send her our hugs would you? And always remember you have plenty of people here you can lean on if things get bad. We've got your back
Post by fiveswinglive on Jul 9, 2019 8:08:56 GMT 1
lioness prayers for your mom. As Steve mentioned you have a great group of people here whose lives have intertwined into what I call a family. We laughed, we cry, we wear bear suits for each other but above all we share unforgettable moments. We don't need to see each other to aid in each others lives. We just need to trust that someone out there feels and shares in the same passion same pains, dilemmas of an everyday life. Remeber that you are not alone and that we are here for you.
Empty, I think... As for my work, on Friday they finally let me take my holiday despite they didn't find anyone to cover my ill workmate. I felt something was wrong. Today I was unofficially informed about a change of shape of my department along with a change of a supervisor. I'm sure the next step will be a notice or a new, worse contract depending on the fact if my ill workmate is going to come back to work or not. For the time being they even don't want to make a quarterly review with me. As from Wednesday I have a holiday and to be honest I'd like tomorrow would be my last day of work. It's not about my pride, I just have enough. For a very long time...
But I can't let it happen... The reason I can't leave just like that is the financial one, of course. I'm not able to fully engage in intense looking for a new job with energy and a smile on my face either. And I'm not able to give up much time for a potential new job, trainings, business trips etc. My mother is ill and I am the only care for her. Since last summer I've known there was something really serious going with her, since April I've known it's a cancer. Inoperable but slowly advancing. She's home and she doesn't want it to change. Me neither, I can't do otherwise and it's non-negotiable.
Well, it will be even more tricky now. Anyway, I'll try to rest and to think, also to enjoy The Cure Summer. It helps me a lot, let me maintain the balance. It's a strange summer, full of emotions, cheerful and very sad...
lioness I’m so sorry you have to deal with awful work issues while also taking care of your mother. Take care of yourself. Your mother needs you, but do it for yourself too. xo
thanks sang & steve . they are going to try an injection first & see if that helps. doing the insurance approval dance now, hopefully can get it done sooner rather than later. am at the end of my rope. pain (& i deal with a lot always but this is ridiculous) & zero sleep. not quite sure how i'm pulling off work.
thanks sang & steve . they are going to try an injection first & see if that helps. doing the insurance approval dance now, hopefully can get it done sooner rather than later. am at the end of my rope. pain (& i deal with a lot always but this is ridiculous) & zero sleep. not quite sure how i'm pulling off work.
Chuck, once again, have some faith in medicine. All my fingers crossed for you... and also for your doctors this time.
You hang in there, too.
But I don't see And I don't feel But tightly hold up silently My hands before my fading eyes And in my eyes Your smile
I mistook stars reflected in a pond at night for those in the sky.