"I crouch in fear and wait. I'll never feel again.
If only I could remember anything at all... "
Haven´t really thought about my age before (soon to be 50) I was 25 years old just a couple of weeks ago,sometimes it hits me "who´s the old guy in the mirror" and then I REMEMBER...
Do you interpret it as "I trick myself as I trick everybody else" or "I trick myself and so does everybody else"?
I like the fact it works both ways and I see it as meaning both things at the same time.
I take this as I trick myself in the same way as others trick themselves. With the "Like everybody else", Cry emphasising it. This seems to be a song about guilt. About something that happened that he doesn't want to talk about but has pulled him into a really dark place. It could easily be about putting stuff in the dishwasher wrong. But I doubt it